This door was never locked like your heart
Nights end unlike thoughts of hope
Tiny clovers spread out of the cracks
Of a brick wall
Cuts and bruises
Fairy lit nights
Strings of guitars play with hearts and sound waves
And then you take my hand
And the wounds
Sew themselves shut -16/10/18
Anyone who thinks a relationship is sunshine and rainbows is wrong. It’s the worst thing in the world.
It’s also the best.
You’re going to go through hell. Get your head out of the clouds.
You’ll be borderline murderous. Attacking their every word. Reducing them and yourself to tears. And then you video call. They call you beautiful. And you’re reminded why it’s worth it.
The bad times are worth it.
Your pillow will get drenched. Your mind will get lost. Your heart will scream.
And then you make new memories. New quirks. New inside jokes.
Taking the risk of holding their hand means they will drag you through hell. But that hand will comfort you. Call you beautiful. Tell you they’ll never give up on you. Find that. Find the calm after the storm. I am the storm and so is he.
Love is destruction. Dangerous. Love is madness. Insanity. Love is nurturing. Lovely
You annoy me.
This whole thing called life
It’s a chore.
You conjure my tears.
You provoke frustration
Pain, irritation, and anxiety.
You scare me.
Because I love you.
You say you can handle me.
But I’m a thunderstorm.
I will drag you through sleet
rain, hurricanes and lightening.
You’ll question everything.
You’ll go insane.
But don’t be so fragile.
Not everything is about you.
I let you be mad.
I let you have your time.
So don’t result to self loathing.
You drive me insane.
Another would have left.
Because I love you.
Even if I don’t want to.
But I know I do.
I guess I just want it to be safe.
To be easy.
We have amazing conversations.
We make each other laugh till we hurt.
I’ve given up on a fairy tale.
They have fantasy creatures for a reason.
You see I get so close to giving up.
But I can’t.
I just can’t because I love you.
I’d be okay by myself.
If I didn’t know you.
But I’m not giving up because I love you.
When birds fly high through the clouds they lift their hearts and heads and songs. Nature teaches us that to succeed we must look to our surroundings and ..well.. camouflage in order to fly…
This is not always easy…
She was drowning
Lungs filling with hot tears
But no one knew…
Fiction, fiction, fiction people! -still possible though…
Don’t look so morbid! Life is not all fine and dandy NO &%$*&^%*%&*^%^&$%^* WAY!!!!!
But “open your eyes and see”*Edsheeran* you are here for a reason. It doesn’t matter if you haven’t found it yet…
“Notice what no one else notices and you’ll know what no one else knows…” *Cityofember*
The whole purpose in life (apart from 42 (which btw is double my favourite number)) is to find your gift and share it with the world…
Yes, “The worst things in life come free to us” *E.S* BUT so do the best 🙂
Not just to the people around you, but to those around the world…
…animals, people, trees, all nature, man made things, endangered flora and fauna, those less fortunate, even those more fortunate and of course- yourself…
Although, you are allowed to not feel love at some times (there is nothing wrong if you don’t feel it or for yourself or from others)
Just TRY to … and you will succeed
(this is me in the pic btw)